The Enemy

Why is she holding her own head? Um... I dunno... 'cause she's her own worst enemy? This is yet another character I have a story for. Kinda fun. Kinda scary... especially since the best times to think about the story is late at night and I'm easily scared. lol. So I scare myself. Why is she holding a whisk? 'Cause I didn't want to draw the same old boring knife, and I thought it would be kinda funny to think she may have 'cause all that damage with such a blunt and clumsy object. She's a very serious character though, lol. She'd seriously stab you with a whisk.

This Economy

I don't mean to be a baby about my job (especially when I'm so fortunate enough to have a good job) but I really am counting down the days until I'm through working there. Frustrating thing, I don't know when that will be! I honestly could quit tomorrow. It would mean a LOT of stress and scrambling to find another job, but it almost would be a relief to know I didn't have to worry about dealing with people all day. I am so over customer service. NEVER AGAIN will I have a job in that field. And call centers have to be the absolute worst. I'm so done. I've BEEN so done. Every art job I've looked at requires ton's of experience or a bachelor's plus as a degree. Stuck. Being stuck sucks. The best I can do is keep this job, and keep on working on getting a portfolio going to show a gallery. Right now I'm working on still life, strangely enough...

Here is a video I made of some of my recent or favorite pieces...

Virtue

I AM LOSING MY PATIENCE! Maybe I've been having an off... week? I feel like I have no patience to complete projects right now. I've started numerous sketches which haven't progressed beyond that for months. I'm stuck. Artist's block? Lack of inspiration? I've been going through lots of digital art of other artist's and I find I am MORE frustrated. So I have found some tutorial's, but some of those are meh. How do I get out of this creative funk!? I don't know. Maybe I need to do something insane. I've been wanting to do something insane for a while. Like, when driving to work, just keep on driving to California or something, lol. Bad idea. I wish I could skip town on a whim though.

No cool art jobs available. At least none that requires no previous experience and an associates degree. lol. Oh wells.

Am I a daily blogger!?!?!

I think I'm becoming a daily blogger! If only I was this consistent with my journal! Here's a thought, will our posterity read our blogs to find more about us instead of personal journals!? Strange.

Anyhow..

This is an hour study in shading. More of a quick sketch. My potential for keeping to one task for long periods of time has been dwindling. lol. I'm also losing patience! So far I'm attributing it to the jail of a workplace where I'm stuck at my desk ALL DAY doing the same thing ALL DAY, which leads to all week, which leads to all month, to all year. So when I do break free to do something else, I want it to take as little time as possible! Maybe my next sketch should be two hours, and I'll work up from there...

Dat dweam.. wif in a dweam...

I am not exagerating when I say that, EVERYONE IS GETTING MARRIED! Out of my close friends, I can count on ONE HAND, who are still single. OH. MY. GOSH. It's that time! It is seriously that time in most people's lives where they find their special someone and get married. And I'm soooo so so so happy to see that happen, especially when I know both people in the couple. It's freaking awesome.

Lately I have had the opportunity to get a new insight to my life and personality, and it's been SO interesting to learn all this stuff about myself. Like, powerful. And it really is the beginning of a turning point I feel. That confidence that most people have, I lack it. And I'm learning to build it and not be afraid of having it, and it is wonderful. And instead of moping and having the mindset that, geez, marriage is never going to happen for me, I can see how it really could! Of course that is a HUGE step, and I've got some baby steps to take care of before that point. Like, start to date someone more than one time. It's scary to make that connection with a person, but I'm sure it's well worth it. And I plan on proving that point.

Okay, so this picture obviously isn't finished. It's a start, and it's not where I want to be as far as skill goes. But so is my art career. It's just beginning, and I'm finding my footing right now. Eventually I'll be striding confidently wherever I go!

Goals,

Double my salary within a year. YES! DOUBLE! How? Keep my current job, lol, (that's not cheating) and be making equivalent amounts of money selling my art! Wow, what a freakin' HUGE goal. It's actually incredibly frightening putting that down in print. So that means I will be working extra hard. I lost my book on How to Survive and Prosper as an Artist. Sucky. Guess I'm buying another one. Anyway, instead of making tons of tiny goals, I made one huge blanket goal that basically encompasses all the rest. Like, getting stuff in a gallery, how else am I supposed to make the big bucks!?

All awesomeness and dreamland warm fuzzies aside, I am seriously questioning this economy's ability to handle the art career. I have been for a while, and things seem to be circling the drain right now. Last I remember unemployment was at 9.5%. Ouch. But at the same time, artists ARE known for picking up the worst areas and making them extremely successful... so, maybe what this economy NEED'S is artists! lol. We'll stick with that mindset.

LOVES!

SIGNED!

I signed my FIRST EVER painting today. Not the first painting I've ever painted... but today was the first time I've signed something! I don't know why I've never bothered to sign anything before, but I've finally permanently added my name to my own work! And it was quite a process! What color do I use, where do I sign!? I'll get the hang of it, lol, I'm sure that's the least of my worries!

The reason I finally had the motivation to sign something, is because I have begun displaying my pieces in public where they can actually be SOLD! It's a far cry from a serious gallery, but you've got to start somewhere. Good news is that I've started!

What and where? Might you ask?

What is the picture above, where is at "Well Hung Framing". Yes. That is the name. It's a legit place too. lol. I pay 5 bucks a month, and I'm selling it for 49.99! Exciting! Now it just needs to get sold this month so I don't have to pay another five for the same piece!