It's Jennifer Connelly! I think she is absolutely gorgeous. This picture is referenced from a magazine shoot she did for Glamour Magazine in March 2009. It took over 2 hours to do, and I actually sketched it on paper first, before deciding to make a digital piece out of it. (That's something I haven't done in forever.)

A little cheat I did, the orchids are actually all copies of the same flower. I drew the original, then made copies and rotated and enlarged or shrunk the flowers to have them appear like different pieces. Also I used the burn tool to add shading to the petals behind other flowers. It speed up the process, and it works for now. Not entirely as convincing as I wanted it to be.

Unlike the pictures I posted last, this is completely my work. No drawing over a picture. This was expressly eyeing it down and drawing by hand.

Hope you like!

This is what I've been up to

Drawing over photos and changing the way you look HAS to be good therapy, it just feels so right, hahaha. I've been drawing over everything lately!

Goals...

I've pretty much been "anti goal" since high school, when my parents would MAKE us come up with goals every new year. Not only did we have to write down our goals, but we had to fill categories, like; Family, Money, Personal, Health, you get the idea. We also had to include how we planned on reaching each of those goals. This was mandatory. I found, most of the time, that I was writing anything down just to have it done and impress the father for the moment. It's not like they kept up on us accomplishing our goals after the first month.

Other times in my life, when I would set goals for myself, they would become the policeman, to ensure that I was completing them, or give me incentive... all these backfired of course. When I'm home from college and walking and running for myself, the last thing I need is someone harping on me when I skip a day or have seconds on a meal, and I definitely don't need someone interfering and telling me I've done a good job so far and they're going to pay me to reach my own goal.

I know all these things were intended to be helpful, but somehow at the time, they weren't. Now, I'm glad that I was taught to plan goals for finances and health, but I have an extremely hard time making them. I cannot tell you the last time I MADE a goal. Like, seriously sat down and said, okay, I'm going to accomplish this in this amount of time. It's been more like, yeah, I'll give myself the opportunity here and there, but if I don't stick with it, no biggie. Lately, I've been watching TV and finding myself SO JEALOUS at the women with their healthy fit bodies. I KNOW completely KNOW I would be their equal if I was in that shape. I could be hot! I want to be hot.

People say, just love yourself for who you are, and in part I do, but at the same time, I am NOT happy being this way. I know I could do so much better. There is no harm in that.

So! Taking all the things my parents taught me growing up, even though at the time I wasn't appreciative, or the policing wasn't necessary, but out of love, I will once again begin making goals! Serious reachable goals. I will also know to love and police myself within those goals. And I'm starting tomorrow! I'd start today, but it's basically over. ;)

NARI!

So recently I made a quiz on Facebook on "What Caracter of Lindsay's Would You Be?" and like, EVERYONE got Nari.

I figured if she's that popular, she should get a picture. I hardly draw her anymore.. :( Her story is next in line after Rona's I'm thinking though. Fear may sneak her way in, but I think Fear's story will definitely be something that I'll work on off and on, since just thinking about it scares me, lol.

ANYWAY! Eventually I'll post the comics to all these characters you keep hearing me talk about. Haha.

The Enemy

Why is she holding her own head? Um... I dunno... 'cause she's her own worst enemy? This is yet another character I have a story for. Kinda fun. Kinda scary... especially since the best times to think about the story is late at night and I'm easily scared. lol. So I scare myself. Why is she holding a whisk? 'Cause I didn't want to draw the same old boring knife, and I thought it would be kinda funny to think she may have 'cause all that damage with such a blunt and clumsy object. She's a very serious character though, lol. She'd seriously stab you with a whisk.

This Economy

I don't mean to be a baby about my job (especially when I'm so fortunate enough to have a good job) but I really am counting down the days until I'm through working there. Frustrating thing, I don't know when that will be! I honestly could quit tomorrow. It would mean a LOT of stress and scrambling to find another job, but it almost would be a relief to know I didn't have to worry about dealing with people all day. I am so over customer service. NEVER AGAIN will I have a job in that field. And call centers have to be the absolute worst. I'm so done. I've BEEN so done. Every art job I've looked at requires ton's of experience or a bachelor's plus as a degree. Stuck. Being stuck sucks. The best I can do is keep this job, and keep on working on getting a portfolio going to show a gallery. Right now I'm working on still life, strangely enough...

Here is a video I made of some of my recent or favorite pieces...